roller coaster

I've always loved them! Emotional roller coasters...not so much! I think I am going to do it...I think I am going to publish these posts. So, you may want to scroll down and read the other two new posts. There were written months ago and I just saved them. Thinking maybe I would publish them when we were pregnant. To explain all we had been through. But I read a friend's blog and just decided to publish. Maybe it will make me write more and that was the purpose: to be journaling during this time.

Reading my last post reminds me so much of how God is at work. I haven't been on such spiritual mountain tops lately, but I don't think that is because He is not there and speaking to me. I started the school year and got busy, busy, busy. But looking back on this school year so far, I really do think God wants me there everyday. I have several students that weigh on my heart and drive me crazy all at once everyday! One in particular gave me a big hug last month and actually told me "Ms. J, you are like a mom to me". I hugged him so tight and knew that message had not only come from him but from God above!

John Ross continues to amaze Lee and I everyday. We are so thankful for him! He is growing up so much! We can have conversations with him. They usually consists of us answering his million questions of "Why", but they are still great! I am going to say it and knock on wood at the same time...but I think he is officially night potty trained! Man...have I washed A LOT of sheets in the past two and half months! He was doing great, but I was just too lazy to wake him up to go pee in the night. He decided at the beginning of the school year that he didn't like sleeping in his room anymore. So most nights he was peeing in our bed...on me! I pulled his crib mattress down from the attic and he now sleeps on our floor right at the foot of the bed! I take him at least once to the bathroom in the night. And he usually ends up in our bed by the morning. The snuggling years won't last forever, and we are loving them! He tells me daily that "I'm the best ever" and it makes my heart melt!

So, we continue on this journey, trying not to forget in the busyness of life WHO is in control. We try to continually focus on what is really important in this life. And most importantly Try, try to focus on what we DO have and the blessings we have been given! And to enjoy life as us three!

"My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast; I will sing and make music. Awake, my soul! Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn. I will praise you, O Lord, among the nations; I will sing of you among the peoples. For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens; let your glory be over all the earth. ~Psalm 57: 7-11